Wow. It’s been almost three years since I have written something in this blog… Its been almost as long since I have kept a steady journal… I actually started journaling off and on again since last Holiday but I can’t believe I let it get away from me like this! I’m convinced the creative light-bulb has been struck dim again in recent years sadly. I’ve just had so many other things to worry over, however those things just seemed to have crept in like some uninvited guest… Icky.
How is it we can lose ourselves when we thought we were out finding the best of ourselves? Here I was, determined to shake off all the excess baggage that was weighing me down… I did that. And I did it well. Then I guess somewhere down the line I decided I’d pick some baggage up again! What a genius idea that was of me! (Please tell me you heard the sarcasm.)
Sure these new bags were bright, shiny and eye-catching like most are. Then they get heavy, sometimes looming like creepy trees in the cemetery. Some came in the form of a 30 year mortgage, a new longer drive to work, sudden medical costs, people passing away, court cases, life altering weather reports and driving through open farmland feeling every single ribbon of the wind wrapping itself tightly around your vehicle. Others came in like lambs but earned high stress ranking. Job promotions and new work mates can make you want to pull your hair out sometimes, especially when its a surprise. I’ll go in depth about all this new baggage in other posts but I did want to let you know a handful of happenings.
It’s not your usual “Oh, Kids & Marriage have changed my life! I simply don’t have time!” No. There have been no children. There has been no marriage. There aren’t even any pets! I’m just out here living life. And while no one dances in the daisies all hours of the day, we have those times when life just gets in the way.
But I’m back. I have got to flip the light-switch back on again. The bulb needs to burn bright again….